Saturday, August 23, 2014

be str0ng is overrated

life takes unexpected turns.sometimes too many things happen at once so you dont have any time to wail or cry.you are too busy trying to hide the sorrow pretending that everything is fine.for what?i dont know.i guess to fulfil people's expectation.people said to me so many times, you are strong.be strong.you are the strongest person i know.i get it that they mean it good but i feel suffocated.i feel like i can't break down because everyone thinks i am strong.the tears i need to hold back just because i am expected to be strong,God knows how difficult it was.so when someone is afflicted,it's better to say that you are praying for her,you are there if she needs you or simply just let her cry.people like us,cancer patients especially..we have a lot going on in our mind.the fear of relapsing or the fear of getting worse.the fear of leaving people behind.the fear of wanting more than you could actually have and ect.so spare us some space.give us time to wail..to cry.don't worry,we are going to pick all those pieces after we are done crying but please dont steal the only thing we can do.don't steal our chance of letting out the anger,frustration we feel.it's not like we are ungrateful.but we just need some time.to convince ourself.to just cry.

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Anonymous said...

May Allah ease everything for you. Ameen

nik idzni dalila said...

thanks..ameeeen :)

Anonymous said...

If you want to, just let it out. Cry to your Lord. just tell Him anything inside your heart for He is the Most Hearing, The Merciful.

nik idzni dalila said...

Jzkk for the reminder..indeed He is most hearing! :)